And there on the cold freezing balcony, he first walked past me to get himself a drink from the bar. Came back outside, grabbed a chair and placed it as if to say,

"Here I am take ur best shot"

See this was my elusive electronic pal with whom I had shared intimate details of my life, loving the whole mystery thing about him. As far as was concerned, he lived on my phone and I in his. And after a year of not knowing who this confidante was, I decided it was time.

Sitting next to me, it was almost as if we hadnt transitioned from electronic communication. There was no ice to be broken and conversation flowed quite easily. we normally updated every second of our days activities by sms so, we didnt have anything new to talk about really. So we talked about anything and everything.

We Loved the same music and sang along to our favorites like 3 doors downs"here without you", Breaking Benjamins "breath". Shot down a couple of whikys and totally lost track of time. Next thing we know, it was Tuesday morning.

Yes I finally met him and all first date rules were broken.

I pray you'll be our eyes

And watch us where we go

And help us to be wise

In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayerAs we go our way

Lead us to a place

Guide us with your Grace

To a place where we'll be safe

La luce che tu dai

I pray we'll find your light

Nel cuore restera

And hold it in our hearts

A ricordarci che

When stars go out each night

L'eterna stella sei

Nella mia preghiera

Let this be our prayer

Quanta fede c'e

When shadows fill our day

Lead us to a place

Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza

Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino

Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai

We ask that life be kind

E'il desiderio che

And watch us from above

Ognuno trovi amore

We hope each soul will find

Intorno e dentro a se

Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer

Let this be our prayer

Just like every child

Just like every child

Needs to find a place,Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe

E la fede che

Hai acceso in noi

Sento che ci salvera

I am a self ordained party gal and it takes a terminal illness normally to get me to stay home all weekend. My mother says I was born restless and if I was a mordern child, I would probably be on a lethal dosage of Ritalin. Anyway a most shocking thing happened this weekened, I stayed home on a Friday night and even more shocking revelation; I liked it. Someone said Im growing old, I think Im just growing up. So all those late night callers where really embarassed when they heard the deathly silence when I picked up the phone. Anyway I think Im going to make a few changes and keep Friday night for myself.

Well staying at home Saturday would have been a bit too much so I deiced to go watch Kobs kick heathens B.U.T.T. And then a friend invited me for a drum show. Yes a drum show. I had never been to one and imagined it would be like Percussion discussion kinda gig. Close to the entrance I run into Petesmama who had lost all hope of finding company for the show. And boy was I glad, coz the ladies I was going with cant be a day under 50. And I want to be like them when Im 50, funny thing is they are skinnier than I am, hip, and were only going coz the invitation cards had men with no shirts on. So we had high expectations.

The Show started off well and by the time it ended, or did we walk out before it ended.........dont remember. It was such muzungu plot and we sat and watched as young men with seemingly oiled torsos drummed away. Then in between was what Petesmama called a weak tango, think it was salsa actually. Then it went downhill from there on, what started as a celebration of African tradition with drums turned into some "booty shaking" ghetto fabulous dance moves.

It was a sad thing to watch and I still believe the side show was better. The Ugandan chics who showed up in cocktail dresses and evenning gowns complete with little sequinned purses as usual didnt disappoint. And the Nyamachoma guy recognised me as his customer from the rugby club(its time to disappear for a while). let me not discourage y'all from going for the next show, they are orphans apparently and need your contribution.

I kissed someone yesterday because I thought I owed it to both of us to find out whether we could possibly be more than just friends. Sounds like a dumb reason I know, But what do you do when somone you have been Bffs with for 8 years turns around and tells you he is in love with you?

I had text book symptoms, I was shocked because i didnt see it coming. Or maybe I did and just ignored it for a long time. Sure explains why I had started to change the topic before he said,

"Will you shut up and listen to me for once!"

Yeah, I was shocked, this man had a spine. Wow! He is kinda hot with his newly acquired balls.

And here comes the denial, classic.

And I have been avoiding him for the past week, till last night when he showed up at my house unannounced. After I had slowly been eased into acceptance, I thought about how much torture he had probably been through listenning to all the details of my relationships. And trust me, I told this guy alot. And I felt sad that all this time he was hurting because of me and I was probably too self absorbed to notice his pain.

So the kiss was innevitable, as penance and like I mentioned before perhaps to change the way I l look at him. He drew closer to meet my cold lips, I closed my eyes................................Just want to spare you the Mills and Boon moments.